Sarah, Hopefully

Friday, July 30, 2004

Super Duper

Okay, I'll write a bigger post this time. :)

So, I went to bed last night with a headache. I really should learn better. Every time I do that, I convince myself that I will just "sleep it off," but usually I wake up feeling even worse. Today was no exception. I think every time I started to wake up, I felt that I had a headache and told myself to go back to sleep. I woke up about 3:00 feeling awful. I tried getting up and eating something, and even took some ibuprofen, but by 4:30 I was asleep again on the couch. I woke up about 6:40 feeling better. However, I was rather disgusted with myself for sleeping the entire day and being in my pajamas still!

My parents wanted us to go eat at Vermont Street BBQ (on Mass St.), but I told them to go on a parents-only date and have fun (but not too much fun!) I went to Hy-Vee and got PUDDING POPS! They are just as good as I remember them! Mm mm. I'm going to eat another one before I go to bed, in fact! I also picked up some Taco Bell and came home to watch "How To Deal" with Mandy Moore. Murl called and said he was off of work early, so he came over and watched the movie with me. Afterwards we went to Hastings, where I bought a book by Meg Cabot (author of The Princess Diaries series) and Murl bought me the Third Day "Wire" CD. It's really good, we were listening to it in the car.

It's kind of weird to think I only got up about 6 hours ago... I think I'm going to have problems falling asleep tonight. ;) Oh well... I have a book to read and a CD to listen to! Hooray.

I'm getting used to the new haircut. I think it makes me look more mature... like I've put less effort into looking this good. (heh.) It's easier to take care of, too... part of that is just the nature of freshly-cut hair, but I don't feel like I have to brush it all the time. It looks good when it's slightly mussed. Strange, I'm actually starting to think I look like a college student! Scawy. Next thing you know, people will start expecting me to act like a grown up! *falls over laughing* hahaha. :)


I KNEW there was a good reason I kept perusing the blogs on the website. PUDDING POPS ARE BACK!!!!!! AAAAAAAAH! I have to run out to Hy-Vee tonight and get some!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On a slightly different note, it's 7pm and I'm still in my pajamas. I'll explain later. I need to go shower, my parents and I are going out to eat.

Thursday, July 29, 2004

Muppet Babies

I've had the Muppet Babies song in my head a lot lately. Why? Why?

I have a headache, so I'll keep this short and sweet. ;)

This morning I drove to KC with my mom to the Mexican Consulate to pick up my visa. Total change from our last visit. Instead of 50 people packed into a room, there were maybe 5 other people there. The lady who was doing my visa was actually NICE this time as she explained (in very, very careful detail) how I must have my special student visa stamped about 8 times between now and next June at various places around the world. We were in there about 10 minutes and then came home.

We got back into Lawrence and ate lunch at Panera. Yummy chicken noodle soup! Then we went over to Lasting Impressions where I got a brand new (tags still on it!) skirt for about $10. Score! I took my mom home and then went to Target. I got a denim jacket and a bag of salad. Yeaaaaaaaaaah, salad! Woo! I came home and ate frozen Reese's peanut butter cups. Mmm, mm!

Spaghetti for dinner, yummy, then custard with my parents for dessert, yay for The Cup, then waited at home until Murl came over. We rented "Down With Love," which is kind of quirky but fun. And now here I am with you and a headache. Man, what a day!

I would finish up with some deep thoughts on the meaning of life or some aspect of it, but I'm seriously in need of some sinus medicine and my pillow. Goodnight!

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

Holy haircut, Batman!

Sooooooo..... I got a haircut. It was really scary. Seriously, I have a haircut phobia. I had to just close my eyes and try not to think about it as she cut my hair. It's cute, I guess... maybe a little shorter than I had originally wanted. Everyone who has seen it seems to like it, though.  Aaah... it's about 6-8 inches shorter with some longish layers in it... which I guess makes it seem fuller. My mom really likes it. But moms have to like stuff like haircuts- don't they?

Ugh. I forgot that my mom and I have to drive to Kansas City tomorrow to pick up my visa. :P Hopefully the lady will be nicer to us this time than she was last time... At least there's a Mexican consulate nearby. Julia was telling me about a girl she knows who is going to Spain who had to drive to CHICAGO for the nearest Spanish consulate. Yeesh. 

After my haircut today, my mom and I did a looooot of shopping. I got a ton of stuff at Wal-Mart. School supplies, shampoo, something like 6 different types of batteries... Fun stuff. On top of that, we went to JCPenney's where I bought some more shirts. 2 shirts and a sweater, really. I'm almost on top of this clothes situation. Almost. :)

I have this list of things to do/people to see before I go. I wonder how much of it I'll actually cross off... people are busy, and I'm reluctant to admit that I'm really leaving. It's easier to pretend it's just another day, another week, another summer.  By the way, William, I got your message and called you back TWICE. The first time no one was home, the second time I left a message with your little brother (I think.) I don't know when you're home, so you call me!

I've been having trouble sleeping this week, and my stomach has been kind of upset. Anxiety? Noooooooooo..... couldn't be. :P

View my haircut pictures below and tell me what you think. Sorry they're not very good, it's hard to take pictures of yourself!

A slightly better picture. So short!  Posted by Hello

AAAH!  Posted by Hello

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Feelin' Funky

I've been in a funk all day. I don't know what my problem is. I woke up feeling this way. Just... irritated and unhappy and unsettled.  Last night as I was going to sleep, I was overcome with panic. Two weeks from yesterday, I'm in Mexico. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

I don't remember ever being this scared before.

Speaking of scared, Murl and I went with my sister to the airport today. She's visiting her Tyler-wyler snugglekins. I had to drive back, though... aaaaaaaah. I haaaaaaaate highway driving! I don't know what bothers me so much. I think it's merging. Once I'm on the highway and can set the cruise control and don't have to deal with changing lanes and stuff, it's okay. But maaaaaaan, I hate driving. Haha. And here I am, planning to go to college in California, the traffic capital of America. :P

Tomorrow my mom and I are supposed to go shopping. I think we're going to Wal-Mart to buy school supplies, batteries, and other such trip necessities... I also want to go to JCPenney and see about getting some more clothes. I got some shirts at Old Navy the other day, but I could still use a few more. Money money mooooooney!

I posted a few pictures from my trip to South Carolina. Enjoy, please, and feel free to click on them to see a larger version. :) (Look below this post.)

Nighty night.

Me being silly as I pack my suitcase. Posted by Hello

The oh-so-fabulous Courtney Gee. Posted by Hello

On a swing at the harbor, right before we walked to the rail and saw lots of dolphins! Posted by Hello

Me, Courtney, and Jenny eating a fancy dinner at S.N.O.B. in Charleston Posted by Hello

Courtney and Jenny, catching some... moonlight rays? Posted by Hello

Monday, July 26, 2004

Movie Night

I saw a lot of movies tonight. Murl and I went to see "I, Robot" and then went to Jenny's house and watched "A Knight's Tale" with her and Becca. "I, Robot" was good, "A Knight's Tale" wasn't. Oh well. We ate pizza shuttle at Jenny's, so it was still fun.

Does wierd stuff ever make you sad? I don't know what it is... a lot of times I'll get really sad while I'm driving. Something about clouds... if it's a rainy-cloud day, but the sun is shining through, it leaves me melancholy... if the moon keeps peeking out from behind clouds, it makes me sad. I'm weird about nature, I guess. Stars take my breath away, but make me sad. I'll stand at a window craning my neck to see the moon, but it makes me want to cry.  I'm not sure why that is...

Thinking about fall is making me sad, too. (I never know whether you're supposed to capitalize seasons. A good question for Mr. Rabiola!) Seeing the USD497 calendar in the newspaper along with lists of school supplies for K-6... I remember all the years of going to Wal-Mart, pushing through the aisles full of anxious mothers and children, searching through box upon box of folders until I found just the right ones.  Inevitably, they were covered in puppies and kittens. The thrill of a brand new box of crayons. I would spend hours sitting on my living room floor, carefully marking my name or initials on every piece of equipment. I remember the thrill of walking into stores like JC Penney's and seeing the fall clothes for sale. Back to school sales! Aah... the words send a little zing through my stomach. I remember all the anxiety and nervousness leading up to the first day of school. Would I like my teachers? Would I have friends in my classes? Would there be any cute boys? Would they think I was cute, too? (This, from a fifth grader!)

Instead of heading "back to school" this year, I am instead traveling to the Land of Eternal Springtime, as they call it. No changing leaves or crisp autumn air. No more dazzling sunrises as I drive to school at 7am in my rumbling old '88 Dodge.  I will wander the streets of Guadalajara, perhaps stopping by a panderia for some sweet breads or pastries on my way to class.  I pulled out some of my vocabulary flashcards last night, and have determined that while I could converse with someone about the subibaja (teeter-totter) on the playground, I will be at a loss if asked to use the juicer or check the frying pan on the stovetop. *sigh* I guess I'll take what I can get.

The hour grows late yet again... To bed I go.

It's Official!

Ack! I just wrote my last entry EVER as squishymoomoo on OpenDiary. Whoosh. I probably could have been more poetic and sentimental had I tried, but... it's 2am. People should take what they can get. ;)

I guess I'll write something rather normal here. Today I slept in late (big surprise.) With all the rain the last couple of days, our basement has been flooded, leaving the house smelling rather musty. My dad had to bring all the carpets outside to air out. I think the flooding really frustrates him because he has worked hard on the ground around the foundation to make it stop spilling water into the house.  I'm sure Julia doesn't appreciate living in a swamp, either. (Water got into her hair dryer, horror of horrors!)

Anyway... Julia and I went downtown to Sunfire Ceramics and each painted a big tile. I painted some tiles a few weeks ago with Courtney to give as a gift to my host family in Mexico. I did 3 little ones and a big one, all with a flower theme. The big one turned out really ugly and nasty though, so Julia made me paint another one. ;) I think this one will be much nicer.  I helped Julia with the art of stenciling. I think she's afraid to unleash her inner artist. She needs lots of encouragement. She is, however, mastering the art of mod podge.

I've been trying to scribble a list of things to do before I go to Mexico. Bleh. It's easier just to pretend that nothing is happening and go out and have fun. Eventually I'll grow up and get down to business, but it's hard to do when Murl has two days in a row off of work and Julia is still in town. By Wednesday things will be back to normal, and I can then finally get things done.

This summer has been the longest summer of my life. I'm not talking in days... just in experiences. So much has happened... I think that all the waiting for people to move or go off to college has made the time go slowly. I've been running around to all four corners of the earth, too, which has made things a little strange.

It's almost 3 am now, so I think I should at least get off the computer. My mom would shake her head at me if she woke up and found me still sitting at the keyboard!


Friday, July 23, 2004

Moving Right Along

Aaah! What is this? Me? NOT on OpenDiary? It feels almost blasphemous, but it's true. I decided it's time to move on... I began my OD at the very end of my 9th grade year, and it has been a good friend to me through high school. However, high school is over now, and I am entering the next stage of this amazing journey called life. Thus, I am also entering the next stage of online journaling.

I've actually had an account with Blogger for a couple of years now, but never my very own personal blog. I've shared a blog with someone else, but it's not for all eyes to see. This is for everyone. Out in the open, a fresh start, a new place... we'll see how it goes.

Sarah Hope. That's me. I don't know what I'm hoping for, exactly... at this point, I'm mainly just hoping I don't have a nervous breakdown as I try to adjust to "adulthood." I'm heading off to Mexico in just two short weeks, and I feel anything but prepared. Down there, I won't be Sarah Hope, I will be Sarah Esperanza. Kind of cool, since it rhymes... Of course, south of the border, I won't be Sair-uh, but I will be Saw-rah. Saw-rah es-pair-ahn-zah. Super duper. :P

Hopefully I will enjoy this fresh chapter of my life, at least enough to write about it... and hopefully you will enjoy reading. That's all we can do, really... go about our everyday business with hope.